Al Baqarah : 216.

Today,i accompanied my mom for a job interview in PUSRAWI International College of Medical Sciences as a Clinical Instructor.It reminds me on once i wanted to be a Nurse as my ambition.Yes,i would really love to work in a hospital as a Nurse,just like my mom but Ayah did not like the idea of his daughter being a Nurse.Thus,i am now an Architorture Architecture student in UTM,Skudai.


Sometimes,i feel like taking Architecture is something a wrongly made decision.Why?I tried to sit back and relax and think on the real reason why i took this course.Well,i do not find any!Thus,where i do i get the idea of being an Architect?I am not sure,at all.I must out of my mind when i put Architecture as my first choice in my UPU application back in 2008.I must be crazy!I guess,this is one of the reason on why i do not score in most of the semesters.


Results are definitely not OK for me and this is the part where i hate the most on every semesters.They worry me much until i can't sleep and cry all night long.When i look at those people,with Dean List Award every semesters,i do really envy them.I will always asks myself,"Why i can't be like them?,".It hurts me so bad.Well,rezeki masing-masing Allah dah tentukan.Yes,i know the fact but if i can work harder,i just can be like them.They are my strength to step forward and fight in this battle of to win and awarded with a piece of paper of Bachelor in Architecture.Do always inspire me!


But then,i learn that university is not all about Dean List Award,Best Designer Award but it is place on where i find of who i am and it is actually helps to shape a better personality of mine.I learn a lot throughout this 3 years+.I learn to be honest and to do my very best on every works given to me.I learn to be honest on people around me.That is because i learn to be honest to myself too.I am brave enough to accept the fact that i am a repeater and i am definitely need to spend more time as compared to my friends.I am brave enough to make decisions for myself and for my future.And i am brave enough to drive a long distance journey now with that 9360 :) *Thank you Mak Ayah for that!* But i fail to manage my time wisely.I must really work on it,i want my 24 hours bubble be as big as they can so that i can fill that big bubble with lot of activities.And that is how i get my life when people telling me,"Go and get your life!,".And because of that,i learn to do things on my own and i am fine with it - it saves my time.But,i still need lot of improvements from day to day.InshaAllah i'll plan my day as smooth as possible.


Thus,i will always remind myself with this,


"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu,padahal ia amat baik bagi bagimu,dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu,padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahu sedang kamu tidak mengetahui,". (Al Baqarah : 216)


Maka,Allah lebih mengetahui mengapa aku di jalan ini.InshaAllah He will lead my way till the end of the world.


I want to shine again as the brightest star as i once be.


I love you,Allah.